More Surgery Ahead

There is still some debate about whether Cushing's is an autoimmune disease or not.  But I thought this meme would be quite appropriate anyway for the reason of the last part of the meme.

I went to the doctor on Monday about a problem I've been fighting most of this winter.  I ended up walking out with a referral to a plastic surgeon to have a panniculectomy.  That means to have my fat removed surgically and skin removed and tucked up as well.  I knew I would have to face that one at some point after I lost more weight anyway.  It came as a shock, though, anyway.  The problem being aggravated is balanitis and phimosis caused by that several hundred pounds of fat pulling on things from behind and above.  And things are getting worse instead of better.  I am also a candidate for a recircumcision as well.

I'll keep you posted, my friends and readers.

Where Should You Go After Leaving the Jehovah's Witnesses

I stumbled on this excellent video today and decided to share it with my audience.

Greetings my fellow readers!

Long time no see but that's my fault.  I haven't felt very well lately what with insomnia and other irritating things I think most of us Cushies would understand.  Back in February, I was hospitalized twice, once for a heart attack and shortly after I went home to an embolism which caused a painful cardiac arrhythmia.  The heart attack had masked itself as a kidney issue.  That's the thing, "widow maker" heart attacks often do just that.  They'll only consist of a lite pain or the pain refers to areas normally felt with other acute problem, such as the right back normally felt when one is having a kidney stone trying to go down the pipe like what happened to me.

The attack was also a wake-up call, I don't have a lot of time left to get what I'm supposed to do down here on earth done.  Deep down I would like to take a trip to Israel and walk the face of the land and visit the places tourists don't usually go to and taking more time to meet people I know of and have some limited contact with face to face.  That is my bucket list.

Until that time I'm going to keep on along the path the Lord has given me to tread and drink of the cup he has handed me until the cup is dry and it is time.  There is plenty more for me to do here so expect more, much more.  If anybody out there has questions they would like to see answered, bring them on!  This is one of the things I live for!

RIP Fellow Cushie, Kalyn

Kalyn Allen, a fellow Cushie whose disease was finally diagnosed not that long ago (last year), lost her battle with Cushing's disease.  We've been blessed with all the resources now available to get to know and help fellow Cushing's, who are often quite alone in our journey as we are with families who often aren't that supportive.  Kalyn had a family who loved her and supported her through her treatment.  But sometimes even that is not enough.  It sounds like embolisms were the cause of death a reminder of how deadly they are.  I had a close call in 2002 with a pulmonary embolism which struck and nearly took me out 15 years ago.

The Announcement of Kalyn's death with a link to her story and a donation page for medical bills can be found Rest In Peace Kalyn.  The page contains a before and after photo of Kalyn.

RIP Dear Lady, Kalyn

A New Discovery About Cushing's!

One of my Facebook friends and a fellow Cushies posted the following to her blog and then posted the link to one of the Cushing's forums today.  Instead of simply posting my own write-up of the material I felt it best she gets the credit she deserves for both bringing this to our attention and the well-written post she put together.  So here is the link to her post:

What We Know About Cushing's just changed!

One of my Sister-in-laws has Cushing's and had the surgery.  Her tumor was in the Pituitary gland and there is no evidence the last I heard of a return of the tumor though there has been a return of the Cushing's Disease.  Could this be the answer?

Catch you later, my friends and readers!

Ring, Ring, Ring: Am I going crazy/

Hello there again from Cushie land!

Okay, do you hear a ringing in your head all the time?  Is it something that just won't go away and just keeps on nagging you day and night no matter what you do?  If you do have it you may well be a victim of Tinnitus.

Tinnitus is a constant ringing in the ears which just goes on and on and on, sometimes to the point of driving people crazy.  People are often driven to all kinds of doctors and take medications for it that only work in the short term if at all.  They try alternative medications, treatments,  such as acupuncture, all to no avail.  That's because when it's that bad there is really nothing we can do shy of firing a bullet through our gray matter.

That's because unless one has worked in an environment which was extremely loud without adequate hearing protection the problem isn't in the ear at all.  And to add insult to injury the medical community has known this since the 1950s, but hasn't adequately trained the doctors in the trenches who have to deal with the patients who have it.  The problem is deep in the brain where communication throughout the brain takes place and is a sign of damage to that system of some sort.  And the kicker is the cause of the damage.

Cortisol and other anabolic steroids are chief culprits.  I found this out when I listened to one of those ads out there promising a cure for tinnitus.  You know, those nice little ads from somebody who went on this big journey looking for a cure to his own problem and discovered a miraculous cure he is willing to peddle to you and me...for a hefty price.  In this case, the man offered up proof of what he was saying, genuine studies which I checked out.  And boy did they check out!

The problem goes back to the old statement of too much of a good thing.  Those of us with Cushing's do know that the cortisols have several uses in the body.  They help regulate our blood sugars.  They repair damaged tissues.  When women get pregnant they do several things to protect both the mother and the baby throughout the pregnancy.  But the problems take place when there is either too little or constantly too much of them in our system, hence both Cushing's and Addison's Diseases.

Where they come in where today's topic is concerned is that when there is too much in the body they can get into the brain and damage the communication system within the brain itself.  Those with Cushing's often become forgetful, especially of short-term items.  They can also experience mental disorders of the sort which involve the communication within the brain if predisposed towards them genetically to start off with.  But the early symptom if such damage which often gets missed is the ringing in the ears of tinnitus.

What the fellow was pushing was an herbal concoction designed to suppress cortisol production on the assumption that was the problem.  And perhaps it might work if caught and treated early on.  I guess a doctor might have better information on that if any studies have been done.

I went on to one of the Cushing's support groups I'm on and asked them if they had tinnitus.  The answer was an overwhelming yes!  So it would appear that it might be another symptom to add.  I also asked those who'd had surgery successfully to cure their Cushing's if the tinnitus was resolved as well.  Sadly it wasn't for most.  So the best thing to do is to get treatment as early as one can if they notice the ringing and if one is on steroids or know they have Cushing's they need to mention that while they're at it so the doctor can factor that into one's treatment.

That's it for now!

Hey There Again!

It's me again my friends!

Above is the newest picture of me and it was taken back in November.  Were it not for the garden that room would be my world with the computer my window on the rest of the world.  You can see a refrigerator, a coffee maker, and my guitar in the background along with my bed.  Since my back started giving out my legs have gone with it to a large extent and I no longer walk like I used to.  but I do fight the trend by getting out and doing what I can in the garden.  Of necessity, I use something folks might call the lazy way to garden, but that's because I am losing strength.

I'm still taking medicine but not losing weight at the moment since I'm on a plateau right now and even gained some over the holidays.  I do have activities and some new goals to meet in the coming year.  That's the thing to keep the spirits up as the battle rages on.  The point is to grow in some way, to work towards and accomplish something and that requires goals.  The wise person doesn't just make it a New Year's resolution thing, they do it all the time and when a goal is reached they replace it with a new one.

I plan to publish a book in and you'll be surprised where I'm going with that, though, I have had it suggested to me that I ought to do one on living with Cushing's Disease which would be kind of autobiographical.  I skipped that because I couldn't quite figure how to not write such a depressing book as I can easily write if I'm not careful.  I am not ruling that out because I consider my knowledge on the subject second to nobody's and may do it after I get my first book or two out of the way and in the market.

The subject matter is emergency preparedness and was inspired by riding out Hurricane Matthew, which was at category two strength when it hit where I live on the South Georgia, USA Coast.  The maps all said we would be under water where we were, but thanks to God that didn't happen though it got kind of hairy, at least for everybody else as it wasn't my first major storm and I slept right through the worst of it that night.  But we were prepared with some last minute help when my housemates finally realized it was going to hit us too late to get out and some preparations I'd made during the previous months as I could during the summer because I had a little niggling feeling they would be needed.  And they were.  But because of them, we rode out the days following in relative comfort to some who hadn't made such provisions.  If those of you watching the news saw a shot of a fat man waving up at a news helicopter the day after in Brunswick, GA it was probably me.  Since the power and net were both out I had no way to watch TV and have no idea if they filmed me or not.

This winter the garden hasn't reached the goal I set but that's alright because I am learning and expect some disappointment along the way.  My Garlic is taking off, though and I do have some miniature brassica plants going, but I'm not harvesting.  I had a tomato plant make it through to Christmas with some tomatoes on it but the last freeze got it.  So there are some positive things there.  So my two goals of a completely edible garden, flowers included and a year-round production are still ongoing.

I'll let you know how things go and I'll try to keep you informed on various topics and issues as well.

MENS: Multiple Endocrine Neoplasia Syndromes

It looks like we've made this young lady kind of famous the way this picture has brought traffic to this blog.  So this article is about a very special young lady and her struggle with a very different disease which virtually mirrors Cushing's Syndrome, MENS, or Multiple Endocrine Neoplasia Syndromes.  Her name is Brandi Fouche, and she and her mother graciously gave me permission to use this photograph of this young lady when she posted it to a private forum for people with Cushing's syndrome because she was essentially the poster girl for the disease.  It took some courage in my book for a teenager in her shape to pose for a picture in a bikini to show a forum she had the classical look of Cushing's, much less to let me expose her to public view to help those seeking information about their own health problems.

A few months ago her mother, Nancy, informed us that testing had revealed Brandi suffered form a form of MENS instead of Cushing's.  Because of what it does MENS often raises the cortisol levels just like Cushing's Disease/Syndrome with the same predictable results.  However, MENS is a more serious disease.

That's because Neoplasias are tumors that form in two or more endocrine glands at the same time and can have multiple affects..  As we found out in exchanges with Nancy they can spread to the lymphatic system, which is an ugly scenario any way one look sat it.  When the tumors grow in the glands they affect whatever hormones are produced for the worse.  So when they take up residence in the Adrenal glands watch out for both Cushing's and intractable hypertension pretty much at the same time.  MENS comes in two types with the second type in two variations

MENS Type I

This is from the Merck Online Manual:

People with multiple endocrine neoplasia type 1 develop tumors, or excessive growth and activity, of two or more of the following glands:

• The parathyroid glands (the small glands located next to the thyroid gland in the base of the neck)
• The pancreas
• The pituitary gland
• The thyroid gland (less often affected)
• The adrenal glands (less often affected)

Depending on which glands are tumors and where those with MENS I will have multiple problems.  One could see a combination of any of the following:

Low blood sugar.

Intractable high blood pressure

Gigantism

Cushing's Disease

Menstrual abnormalities and breast secretions while not nursing (in women).

Peptic ulcers

Decreased sexual desire and erectile dysfunction (in men)

It appears that MENS I will have a familial history, though, with the relatively recent recognition of the disorder and difficulty recognizing the Syndrome that history may not be known.

MENS Type IIa

 Once again from the Online Merck Manual:

People with multiple endocrine neoplasia type 2A develop tumors or excessive growth and activity in two or three of the following glands:

• The thyroid gland
• The adrenal glands
• The parathyroid glands  

People with this disease often develop thyroid cancer.  They'll often have intractable high blood pressure.  They can also develop kidney stones.  Once again there does seem to be some family association with this form of MENS.

MENS Type IIb

Lastly, from the same Online Merck Manual:

Multiple endocrine neoplasia type 2B can consist of

• Medullary thyroid cancer
• Pheochromocytomas
• Growths around nerves (neuromas)

This is the scary kind because of its association with cancers.  It is not considered familiar instead being a genetic mutation.  Because of that it can show up as early as three months of age.  There are also often other abnormalities associated with it.  The link i provided to the Merck Manual has more detail on these and other things associated with the other types of MENS as well.

Diagnosis

There are DNA test for this disease.  A doctor may also order a nuclear scan of the body to detect the tumors.  The test is done by injecting a special nuclear die which will concentrate in areas of high blood usage and then a scan is done with a detector which maps out the areas of concentration.   Other testing, such as hormonal tests may lead a doctor to suspect and test for this condition.

Treatment

The treatment is to go in surgically and get the tumors out.  It may require the complete removal of the thyroid or one or both of the Adrenal glands.  So treatment can be a rather expensive proposition.  

I've missed the latest of my friend, Brandi, and i don't have the link I'd planned on including to help her and her family out on the medical expenses.  When I get it I will come back and edit this article to include it and send it back out for folks to see.  Brandi has a rough road and this has affected her health and some of her familial relationships.  Her mother is in her corner for sure and so am I.

60, And I'm Still Moving Along!

Hello, my friends and readers!  I hit the big 60 a couple of months back and feeling great considering my disease and the problems it causes.  I saw my endocrinologist and he decided it was time to increase the daily dosage of the medicine we're using and hoping I don't have any trouble with it.  So far I'm feeling alright.

I'm about to take the time to look at more of the research and start reporting what I find.  However, I would like for my readers to go ahead and suggest topics they would like to see me address for them.  Remember, I'm not a doctor and cannot hand out advice which amounts to practicing medicine.  So I cannot really answer those kind of questions.  But things which the research shows or topics f a personal nature on how to overcome or work around this disease are fair game.  So go ahead!

This young lady has been responsible for plenty of visits to my blog and I am very grateful to her for allowing me to use her photo.  It turns out she has a different disease which kicks the cortisols up through the roof and is being treated for that now.  Such diseases are often characterized as "pseudo" Cushing's because they fit the profile so well and only get caught in the workup.  The last I talked with her mother they did have a fund set up to help them with the medical expenses.  If the mother will contact me after i post this to Facebook I'll be sure to let you know how you can help.

I would like to announce an addition to my blog family, The Cushie Gardener at http://thecushiegardener.blogspot.com/ .  This will be a site for people who want to garden, but especially those who are disabled or low income and want to know how to have a vegetable garden which won't break the bank or their health in the process.  It will be joined by a Youtube channel which is already set up of the same name.  I just have to start videoing and figure out how to edit my videos.  Please feel free to go over there and follow me on that part of my journey in life.

Catch you later!

Hello Again!

Hello Everyone!

Today my legs don’t seem to have the strength to go out and do some of what’s needed in my garden, so I have the time to blog a little.

To catch up, the treatment I’m getting for my Cushing’s, a D9 agonist, is working slowly, which is what the doctor wants right now.  My weight is on a downward trend, slowly, but that appears to be one of the important things the doctor is using to gauge the best way to proceed without causing an adrenal event.  I’m on board with that considering how painful such things are.

I’ve been physically active, working with my garden to the extent I can.  The result has been a good harvest of tomatoes and peppers lately, too much for me to eat!  Ah, but the variety and taste!  It’s been wonderful to have and use to make sure I’ve got some real nutrition in the diet were are forced to have around here.

My kidney function is kind of low right now.  Not all of the tests ordered are posted to my portal yet, so I don’t know yet if it may be an infection causing the problem, or need to look to something else.  I’ve had several infections, which is kind of strange with this one considering my wife is 800 miles away looking after her mother right now and I’m not doing anything which should cause an infection.  I guess it’s just one of those things.

Update

Okay, I didn't get the blogging done:

I having too much fun strumming that guitar!  April turned out to be both a busy month, and one with some challenges. I'm working on the garden I talked about, and shortly after posting my last message I moved some bags of compost around, forty pound bags. By the next morning I was in the emergency room. I had a flight to make in early April and worried I might not be able to make the planned trip. But I made it. Afterward I continued to work in my garden, but the way I had to adjust made things take longer and I just wasn't up to updating blogs.

Because of the way I have to do things my garden has moved more slowly than most. But I'm already enjoying some lettuce and tomatoes out of it and should soon be adding a little sweet potato leaves into the greens mix. I have seven varieties of tomatoes growing and three of them starting to produce fruit. I'm harvesting lettuce, of course, I planted some butter-crunch, and then bought and planted a mix of 20 heirloom varieties, part of the purpose to figure out what varieties will do beast in my climate and the way I'm gardening. But my salads now have a pleasant diversity of lettuce varieties in them.

I'm using three methods to grow, container gardening, square foot gardening, and a method suggested by a professional horticulturist, who also teaches horticulture in a university. The irony is that the method she suggests to everybody is really the easiest and less physically demanding of the three, though the other two aren't that hard either and have their advantages. I may take the time to go into more detail in another post sometime on that one since I think it is a really great method for disabled gardeners who have land to plant in.

Since most of the really demanding stuff is done in the garden and I need to get back to writing for another reason, I’ll try to start blogging more about the other issues which we deal with and the research as I wade through it.

Take care everybody!

Cushing's Blogger Challenge

Hello again!

Next month there will be a challenge to Cushie bloggers to post everyday in their blogs and I've accepted the challenge.  Four days in particular will be difficult to do since I will be out of town for a religious convention.  If you've read through my blog then you already know my faith is a major part of how I cope with the challenges of my disease.

Generally I put quite a bit of effort in my posts, to make sure the information I present is accurate, so plenty of research is often involved.  The challenge page offers a nice list of themes to blog on, so I'm going to see how many I can hit along the way.  I should also have my garden going for this season, I've already got some lettuce, spinach and onions up and running and they should be transplanted by then.

Since I mentioned my faith being important to how I cope and maintain some personal balance, I'm going to leave you with a devotional piece I try to read daily.   The last three parts are what I really like about it because it is a reminder of who is in control and the attitude I should work to have in the face of my problems.  It is called My Morning Resolve:

My Morning Resolve

My Earliest Thought I Desire Shall Be:

"What shall I render unto the Lord for all His benefits toward me? I will take the cup of salvation and call upon the name of the Lord [for grace to help]. I will pay my vows unto the Most High." – Psalm 116:12-14

Remembering the Divine call, "Gather My saints together unto Me; those who have made a covenant with Me by sacrifice" (Psalm 50:5), I resolve that by the Lord's assisting grace I will today, as a saint of God, fulfill my vows, continuing the work of sacrificing the flesh and its interests, that I may attain unto the Heavenly inheritance in joint-heirship with my Redeemer.

I will strive to be simple and sincere toward all.

I will seek not to please and honor self, but the Lord.

I will be careful to honor the Lord with my lips, that my words may be unctuous and blessed to all.

I will seek to be faithful to the Lord, the Truth, the brethren and all with whom I have to do, not only in great matters, but also in the little things of life.

Trusting myself to Divine care and the Providential overruling of all my interests for my highest welfare, I will seek not only to be pure in heart, but to repel all anxiety, all discontent, all discouragement.

I will neither murmur nor repine at what the Lord's providence may permit, because

"Faith can firmly trust Him,
      Come what may."  

Link to Cushie blogger's challenge:

 http://cushieblog.com/2015/03/01/fourth-annual-cushings-awareness-challenge/

 

So, How's That Treatment Going?

Since it's been awhile since we talked about our treatment we thought our online friends might want to know how things are going.  We went to the doctor just last Friday, 01/30/2015.  I'll get to what we found out in a minute, but first a review of the treatment we started.

Back in October of 2014 we reported among a number of things that we began a course of treatment with a medication of the same class as one which is being evaluated to treat Cushing's, that is Cabergoline.  Specifically it is not cabergoline used in my case, but another D9 agonist which is also a wider acting drug.  a couple of years back we underwent surgery to remove a tumor we hoped might be the culprit for our Cushing's though it is sited in a place more typical for a Cushing's like disease known as MENS, or Multiple Endocrine Neoplasia.  MENS is a Disease in which the victim presents with multiple tumors which secrete excessive amounts of hormones, cortisols being the most common.  It's not a nice disease to contemplate having as in many cases the tumors are cancers.

Within days we entered the local emergency room with agonizing muscle spasms only to find out that though we had removed a tumor suspected of causing Cushing's and prophylactically been given some corticef to head AI off, the local ER wasn't allowed to test for AI (Adrenal Insufficiency) because it wasn't considered an emergency situation, a really dumb idea given this patient had informed the staff that the possibility was on the table because of the surgery and that AI can kill in a hurry.  So the attending doctor pumped us full of another kind of steroids and muscle relaxers until the cramping stopped.  Then we were sent home on a very high dosage of prednisone and told to see the attending surgeon in  couple of days.

On the day of our appontment with our surgeon we tested our blood sugar and the home tesotr informed us that our blood sugar was high, no figure, just too high for the machine to test.  Since the appointment was an hour away and the office in the same building as the hospital's ER, we kept the appointment.  Naturally the doctor sent us down to the ER, where we were found disoriented on the way by a nurse who was off duty on break and she rounded up a wheelchair and somebody to take us down to the ER where we were admitted with a blood sugar of 608, a deadly situation.  When our condition was stabilized we got a referral to the only local physician we trusted enough to deal with the situation though it was outside his specialty.

Because that doctor felt our neurological system had been compromised he started us on two medications to deal with the situation, Gabapentin and Ropinerole.  We are sure the Ropinerole was a good call because we'd already started having some trouble with some mild restless legs style symptoms but hadn't reported them yet.  So we were on the way there and the ER treatment just probably hurried the situation along.  That was back in 2012 and I haven't had a high cortisol test since.  I've had a couple of very low ones, but no high one.  What made that really frustrating is that during 2013 we did an evaluation with the object of putting us on one of the two new medications to teat Cushing's and all of our test results came back on the high side of normal.  What is more certain symptoms of Addison's I have increased since.  So we couldn't get the medication to treat Cushing's, yet our cortisols were not at a level low enough to begin reversl of my condition.

While a friend and I were on the phone one day looking into a personal theory he had which he felt might explain our Cushing's, we stumbled on a paper about a trial of a medication being explored to treat Cushing's, the D9 agonist used to treat Parkinson's disease, Cabergoline.  It hit us one of our new medications, Ropinerole, is also used to treat Parkinson's, along with Restless Leg's Syndrome.  So we checked and fund out it is also a D9 agonist, along with acting on some other receptors as well, which would explain why it wasn't being evaluated as well.  So we talked with our endocrinologist on our next visit who felt we might be on to something and looked into Cabergoline and the possibility that tweaking our dose of Ropinerole might be a strategy for treating our Cushing's.  As a research physician as well as a professor of endocrinology the possibility struck a note with the doctor.  After six months of research and forming a plan, our dosage was slightly increase to see if the Ropinerole was indeed suppressing our cortisols and a treatment stratagem established.  By the way, the doctor who at the time was prescribing the Ronpinerole approved of our little experiment, tomorrow I'll tell him how it is turning out.

Now for the money part of the post. The doctor who started me on the Ropinerole will probably like what I have to report.  Technically I'm still at the small dosage range, small enough that increasing the dosage as we did probably wouldn't have hurt a thing.  Yet, my endocrinologist is pleased with results.  Our cortisols are now at a level he feels comfortable with for treating the disease.  Something to remember is that we are cyclical  and our cortisols do drop far enough on their own to cause problems, and may already have done so once since treatment began.  So the doctor wants to go slow enough to avoid that problem as much as possible.  While we don't blame him, we do have a problem with patience and are willing to risk much to gain much.

Our heamogobin A1C is stabilized a 7.0 and we have a demonstratable, if slow weight loss going.  We've gone from 368 lbs, at the beginning of treatment to 358 lbs, so the weight slope is downward.  Although we are still hypertensive, and that worries the Doctor, our blood sugars are well into normal range in the mornings.  So everything points toward success at this point.

We've also improved our health in other ways.  We are now off of pain medications and getting around better.  My back Doctor would probably be pleased with that and I might want to schedule an appointment with her for a new evaluation for that.  

If we continue to improve and could get our experience into the medical literature it would add another bit of evidence for the efficacy for treating Cushing's with D9 agonists safely.  With more treatment options open for Cushies more personal stratagems for the treatment of this disease be available to personalize the treatment to what works best for the individual.  That can't but help those of us who've waited so long for this day where more treatment options open up for us.

So I just thought my friends might want to the update.  I have a few more topics cooking and will hopefully have something more for you in a bit.

Chiao!

Doing For Ourselves: Quality Food And Some Of the Benefits Of Gardens

Hello again my friends!

This is one of those occasional doing for ourselves posts you will probably see more of since this blog is more than just an informational blog on Cushing's, it's about my journey and taking a more holistic approach to living with it.  This topis, food, get's a little touchy for us.  So please, if you are a disabled Cushie please take some time to consider carefully what I'm about to say to you.  If you are a family member, please think about it as well from the standpoint of doing something for your loved one suffering from this disease from more than the standpoint of, "Hey, here's something You can do!"  It may well be that your loved one may just be too much to do this for themselves, but you may be able to do this for both them, and the rest of the family.

Earlier last year I was sitting in front of the computer and exchanging comments in a Forum for Cushies like me on Facebook when the conversation took a turn which made some of us uncomfortable, but made me think, "Why Not?"  The fact is that Cushies who've reached the state of advancement with their diseases to be disabled have a special problem on their hands, FOOD!  The truth is that if one gets SSI here in the United States the government limits what their spouses can make pretty strictly while being able to keep on receiving benefits.  In many cases, they can't get extras many people on other forms of welfare can get, such as food stamps to help stretch things where they can get quality food.

When that happens we generally end up eating cheap, minimally nutritious foods like the morbidly obese we see featured on TV.  We get stuck with things like boxed macaroni and Cheese, or pasta salad, food which doesn't fill us up to start with, and does nothing but pile the weight on as we try to find some feeling of satiety.  Such food is devoid of nutrients, so it adds to the problem by denying us the nutrients we need to maintain our health as we fight this disease.  So what can we do?

There is a counselor in the group and she asked us why not grow a vegetable garden?  Well, there were plenty of answers to that one.  The expense of gardening, the work involved, we are disabled after all and can't do a whole lot, not knowing how, and so on.  In a way I don't blame my fellow Cushies.  I'm 358 pounds as of my last weigh-in two days ago at my Endocrinologist's office.  My back is shot, I can't bend over much or stand for very long.  So chores like weeding are just out of the question.  And, yes, there is the expense, if I could really afford to garden in the first place I could just go ahead and buy the food I need, right?  Added to that, what the heck do I know about gardening and who am I kidding anyway?  Yep, I thought, there are some pretty big obstacles to following that advice.  But I decided instead to follow that advise anyway and do so with a view to overcoming those obstacles.

More often than not those with Chronic diseases don't have much space for a garden to begin with for various reasons and their disability won't permit them to have much of a garden anyway.   Added to that there is a public perception that vegetable garden are inherently unsightly anyway and home vegetable gardeners are running afoul of local codes because they don't know how build an attractive garden.  Look at the picture above of a relatively small patio garden which makes clever use of the way the vegetables are combined in a way that the garden at least isn't unsightly and is hard to tell from any other bed with non flowering ornamental plants.  Of course most of us with Cushing's can't grow a garden quite like that, even with help, which a disabled gardener would want to get from family members capable of doing some of the heavy lifting and other tings we can't.  So the obvious answer is:

Yes, my friends, that is a picture of a dwarf tomato in an ornamental planter, or container.  Container gardening is the obvious answer to the problem.  It requires little in the way of tilling soil, raises the plant higher up making it easier to reach and permits the gardener to move the plant around if necessary for the conditions.  As we can see here, containers also permit us to plan an attractive as well as productive garden, at least in areas readily visible to the public, as in the case with that tomato plant.  I will admit planters like that don't come cheap.  But in areas where the appearance of the containers is not a real issue it is possible to get them cheap, or even for nothing, if one knows where to go, such as with these:

The fellow pictured here with his container garden is using five-gallon containers such as the sort folks often see for sale in hardware stores for mixing things up in and other purposes.  They can be cheaper than ornamental containers, but they can also be found for free.  Restaurants, bakeries, and other establishments often order needed supplies in three or five gallon containers just like the ones above, and are willing to give them away to anyone willing to take them off their hands after they're empty, for free.  One just has to have courage to ask around and find those businesses.  A word of caution, stay clear of businesses like janitorial services and the like unless you are certain the chemical supplies they use are biodegradable and non-toxic. 

By the way, the same can be said for nitrogen fertilizer, coffee bars and the like brew enough coffee to fill containers like that daily.  Some are happy to give the grounds away to those wiling to take them.  So that's a potential free source for compost material, and long term nitrogen needs since it takes a couple of months for the grounds to be processed in the soil and the nitrogen made ready for the plants to use.  There are many other resources for gardeners who need to garden on the cheap can use.  There are community mulch and compost heaps which are maintained by municipalities as part of their sustainability programs.  One simply needs to use the internet or get out in their community and find out what is there.

Seeds aren't that expensive.  One tip is to buy and use heirloom an/or open pollinated varieties of vegetables such as Brandywine tomatoes, etc., and collect and save seeds from the produce.  Open pollinated (heirloom varieties are open pollinated varieties with a known history of fifty years or more) plants often are a bit less productive than hybrids, but they are generally tastier and reduce seed costs in the long run if one learns to collect the seed and store it from year to year.  It is just one more way to reduce the cost of gardening as time goes by, just like composting and slowly accumulating durable containers a little at a time.  Something else to keep in mind is that your garden won't be that big, just what you can handle, so the expense if one uses a semi-organic approach and uses strategies to avoid expensive fertilizers and chemical herbicides or pesticides will keep the costs down.

Start out small to start off with.  You will have to make your mistakes while you learn and you will also have to convince family to help you with the tasks you can't do yourself.  It is better for both if you start small, just a couple of kinds of crops and a few plants of each, I grew some onions, tomatoes and peppers last year.  I also started a small compost pile.  That was a freebie, though raking up grass clippings and pine straw was trying, even with my small lot.

I found information online.  YouTube is a great source for information.  Some of the gardeners who have YouTube channels hold annual seed giveaways for subscribers willing to send self addressed stamped envelopes.  I got my hands on five packet of seeds that way from one channel I subscribe to, and I have five more on the way, from another one who is giving away seeds given to her by an heirloom seed company which is dedicated to the preservation of heirloom varieties through encouraging beginners to garden with thing like free distribution to other like minded individuals and organizations.

I will provide links to a number of seed companies.  One of them is the company I mentioned, another sells all his seeds for $0.99 a packet and has a fixed shipping rate.  His desire is to make gardening with heirloom vegetables more affordable and he is a recent start-up with his own YouTube Channel I recommend subscribing to.  another is one I've dealt with which has a pretty good selection.  There are lots more companies out there, but the links I posted will be a place to start if you would like to take the counselor's advise and garden.

More than just food, gardening will slow the degeneration of one's health through keeping you active, and I discovered another benefit of gardening.  Just sitting on a stool among he plants was calming and made one really great way to reduce unhealthy stress and find some balance.

Seeds

Annie's Heirloom Seeds
Burpee's Heirloom Vegetable Page

Gary Ibsen's TomatoFest

MIgardener

Baker Creek Seed Company

YouTube Channels To Start With

Alberta Urban Garden Simple Organic and Sustainable 

CaliKim29 Garden & Home DYI 

Gary Pilarchik 

Praxxus55712

Remember, these are all starting points for videos on how to garden, and several of them have smaller gardens.  The one in Alberta pairs up with another gardener who has his own channel, and he is worth checking out as well.  If you do start, you will want to explore YouTube and find gardeners who fit your particular circumstances more.  The same with the seeds, there are many other fine seed companies out there and if you don't live in the United States of America you'll want to research reputable companies in your own home country.

I've Been Busy: And I have some things to report on

Hello dear friends and readers!

It has been a while since my last post, but I’m going to try and do better.  I’ve been a busy boy!

First, let me inform all of you of a couple of things I’ve come across.  First, let me say that I have a friend who came into my life by phone who is a cured Cushie and sadly discovered, to his dismay, that problems don’t just disappear when an ATCH tumor is removed.  Although we Cushies do lose all or most of that weight gain we had as Cushies, other damage still remains and if things are strained to the breaking point with friends and family sometimes those relationships just aren’t recoverable.  It was because of those things that I was brought into his life.

Well, we made a project out of researching those issues, and he made a project out of researching Cushing’s to, perhaps, gain more insight in my condition, where there is no visible tumor obviously causing my problems.  One of the things we did find out is that it is possible, though there doesn’t seem to be a proven case yet, for a problem with the HPA axis feedback systems, most likely a problem with the sensors, could be behind some cases like mine.  I will mention, though, that my diagnosis is no Cushing’s Disease and my endocrinologist thinks I have a micro tumor which is slipping between the cracks of my MRI scans, a more common happening than most folks realize.

Well, in the course of our research of the medical literature we stumbled onto one article where the doctor implied Cushing’s may be much more common than officially thought.  So I contacted the doctor, who lives in France to find out if that was his position and he sent me back what appears to be an article he has, or is going to submit for publication.  The contents astounded me!  It is a review of research which has been done in Europe on the incidence of Cushing’s in the Diabetic population, the papers he reviewed had an incident rate when averaged together of about 1.5%, which is well above the official rate on an order of magnitudes.  Now that we knew where to look, we dug up two more papers, one out of the UK and another out of Turkey, which had even higher rates.  In the case of the UK, they found a rate of 10% of Diabetics tested had Cushing’s.  The Turkish research test obese men and found a similar rate of 10%.  And all of those used the Dexamethasone suppression test as their standard for diagnosis, which misses a significant number of cases with Cushing’s!  One of the Western European papers and the Turkish paper recommended screening for Cushing’s for all of the populations studied as a matter for course.

In the course of our hunt for all things Cushing’s we stumbled across a study on the efficacy of treating Cushing’s with Cabergoline, a D9 agonist.  The study was quite favorable towards its use because it seems to be quite effective with a certain subset of Cushing’s sufferers.  That had particular significance for me since I am on a D9 agonist and my cortisols have all tested in the upper normal range with the exception of one occasion, since I’ve been on that medication.  The one occasion was when I collapsed in an intermediate care center and they called an ambulance, on that occasion I was diagnosed with adrenal failure, given Cortisef and sent home after I came out of it and they were sure I was stable.  That opens up some possibilities right there.

Also on a personal note, in early spring I had a realization hit me like a falling brick wall.  My back is still degenerating and it is become more difficult to walk.  I can only stand up for short periods of time and walk a short distance before the pain becomes overwhelming, and that even with pain medication!  Without it I can barely make it to the kitchen at the front of my home and back to get a cup of coffee, and sometimes I don’t even make it that far.  If I want to cook, say an egg, then I better take the pain medication before I try that, and anything which requires more time?  Well, I put a stool in the kitchen for that.  The realization was that I was giving in and letting it take its course without a fight.  So I decided to fight!

Earlier, last winter in fact, there’d been a discussion between some of us on a Cushing’s forum where a number of us complained that on disability we simply can’t afford quality food, that is, fresh fruits and vegetables, on what we are given to live on.  Because of that we are pretty much forced to live on pasta dishes and the like, which makes our weight gain even easier.  Well, somebody very knowledgeable on nutrition suggest that we garden.  When I realized what I was doing by giving in to my back problems and recalled that online conversation I decided it was time to go after two birds with one stone.  So with the help of my family I started a small garden this year.

We’ve left an old broken office chair outside to serve as a stool for me to use and, after some experimentation I found that container gardening is the best way for me to go.  So, we’ve only bought several packs of tomatoes since my vines of beefsteak tomatoes started bearing their fruit.  True, they aren’t that productive, but this is my first year at it and here at the late season they are popping out since I got my fertilization scheme right.  But they have pretty stably provided me enough tomatoes for my sandwiches to cut down on the food bill some.

I’m looking to the long run, which means I’m using heirloom varieties instead of the easier to grow and cheaper hybrids.  I can save the seed from the best plants among my heirlooms and have reliable seed to plant next year, or later, if I choose to grow more varieties an my small space in the yard of the duplex I live in can really handle.  That means my seed cost will go down in the long-run as I build up a nice variety of stock I and my family can use and rely on.  It also means, since I am using containers, that my initial high cost for soil will go down in a few years and all I’ll have to do is replace some of the nutritional factors as I go along and reuse my potting soil.  By the way, although we didn’t do it this year, my plan is to use organic growing methods from now on.  I have already planned out next year’s garden and gotten most of the seeds I plan to use.

I’ve also started a New Channel on YouTube, Disabled Gardening.  I haven’t uploaded my first video yet, though I have shot most of the video footage for it, I just haven’t put it together and narrated it yet.  I intend to use it to both chronicle my gardening and to offer tips on how those of us who are disabled or otherwise disadvantaged, can grow gardens and feed ourselves, right now in an urban environment where it is wise to also make our gardens appealing in appearance as well.

So there you are.  That is what I’ve been up to.  I hope you’ve enjoyed my story.